Aish!! Get an hour lecture from my dad during lunch today…nearly get gastric pain dy…
I just started eating my lunch when my dad began to lecture me…
Was forced to stop eating in order to respect him…
Throughout de whole lecture, I was just wondering when he’s gonna stop so dat i can continue my lunch…darn hungry at dat time…
At first, he pointed out 2 of my mistakes…I felt sorry for my mistakes..
But then, he started talking about de family drama dat happened a month ago..
Talking about his scar, de pushings, screamings on dat day n blah..blah..blah..
He said he felt hurt…In my mind, I replied it was all ur own fault…
He also says throughout de whole drama, I was just standing by de side cos i was blur n dunno wat’s happening…
The truth is I screamed & shouted too…But it’s just dat his voice is too freaking loud dat my voice can’t be heard at all..
I also helped in pushing(although my strength doesn’t help much) but i guess he’s too angry at dat time to notice where n wat i’m doing at dat time..
He says dat both sides are at fault…
He says he needs to explain to me wat’s happening so dat i know who’s right or wrong..
Haih..why does he have to remind me of dis stupid drama again…
I already forgot bout it but he just kept reminding me…
Does he still thinks dat i’m 10 year old??
Does he still think dat i couldn’t figure out things by myself??
Does he still thinks dat i’ll listen to him??
Doesn’t he realise dat de more he forces me, de more i’ll rebel??
Doesn’t he realise dat there’s always a gap between me n dis family n it’s getting wider bcos of him??
Doesn’t he realise dat i hate him for loving me more than sis??
Doesn’t he realise he’s de one dat causes mum to left me out??
Doesn’t he realise dat i’m not getting enuf mother love bcos of him??
Doesn’t he realise dat i never tell them my true feelings??
Doesn’t he realise there’s a thick wall around me??
Doesn’t he realise i need my own privacy??
Doesn’t he realise it’s a crime to read someone’s private blog??
Haih…i need to listen to music to clear my mind rite now..gonna take driving lessons after dis..i dun wanna crash n die so young..lol
on September 27th, 2008 at 5:19 am
Honey.. Dun u ever blame urself, dat dad loves u more than me.. I dun reli mind or care anymore.. Loving you is like loving me.. I’m glad that he loses his temper on me n not u.. I’m reli sorry that u’re getting less mummy’s love.. but u have to know, me n mum r figuring out how to make it up to u.. mum was very upset bout d way she treated u.. she was very sorry n she’s changing.. so, dun blame her, k? Jz remember, no matter wat, mummy n i will always b by ur side and v love you. Muax!!
Sorry for reading your blog =P
on October 28th, 2008 at 1:45 am
hi, Do something for help the hungry people from Africa or India,
I made this blog about them:
in http://tinyurl.com/556poc
on January 20th, 2009 at 8:38 am
Well,ur dad might tink.. u stil not mature yet and worry u might take d wrong decision sometimes… dat’s y,he kip on repeat d drama’s story.. compare 2 me,i change my parents view! Yo,come on.. can u tell me.. who’s parent dun love they children? If dey dun love u,dey edi send u sumwhere… but not let u live 2gather.. dat’s called Cruel parents! Now,tell me… does ur dad is cruel? And y,he choose u? Y not ur sis? is so lucky,he can tell his story 2 u.. compare me,i nid to tell my story always to my parents! Not every1 can express they story to they children.. bcoz,dey nid 2 think many times.. either it suitable 4 they children enot.. U nid to b strong,eventhrought ur mum is not reli beside u…not bcoz she dun love u.. may b,dere’s a secret behind dat only ur mum n sis noe..a mum owayz nid big daughter beside.. like me,my mum treat me as 21 yrs old.. at home.. but outside,seem not me? Coz,my frenz not older den 21 yrs old.. but in net,i can b any ages i can.. So,dun wori.. 4 on9.. is freedom 4 wat u r doin til limit.. not those naked or negative tings.. is juz alrite.. ur dad,cares u… dat’s y.. he owayz wana noe ur privacy! is not a crime 2 read.. coz,he is over care u.. eventhrough is wrong! I jealous of high sch time,ur class so hapi compare mine.. but after dis post.. i feel,myself is lucky much… I become problem solver after dat.. my target become programmer & designer in multimedia field.. delete dat comment which is cheritycall ! Any1,does my words hurt u? But i’m saying d truth ting.. even my letter to a girl.. which same wif u.. cry for happiness after readin my letter.. is sometin,my pleasure 4 dat.. frenz,call dat.. 2008 memories 4 me,is longer den yours in 2007.. now,is ur turn to make it longer for 2009!