Aish!! Get an hour lecture from my dad during lunch today…nearly get gastric pain dy…
I just started eating my lunch when my dad began to lecture me…
Was forced to stop eating in order to respect him…
Throughout de whole lecture, I was just wondering when he’s gonna stop so dat i can continue my lunch…darn hungry at dat time…
At first, he pointed out 2 of my mistakes…I felt sorry for my mistakes..
But then, he started talking about de family drama dat happened a month ago..
Talking about his scar, de pushings, screamings on dat day n blah..blah..blah..
He said he felt hurt…In my mind, I replied it was all ur own fault…
He also says throughout de whole drama, I was just standing by de side cos i was blur n dunno wat’s happening…
The truth is I screamed & shouted too…But it’s just dat his voice is too freaking loud dat my voice can’t be heard at all..
I also helped in pushing(although my strength doesn’t help much) but i guess he’s too angry at dat time to notice where n wat i’m doing at dat time..
He says dat both sides are at fault…
He says he needs to explain to me wat’s happening so dat i know who’s right or wrong..
Haih..why does he have to remind me of dis stupid drama again…
I already forgot bout it but he just kept reminding me…
Does he still thinks dat i’m 10 year old??
Does he still think dat i couldn’t figure out things by myself??
Does he still thinks dat i’ll listen to him??
Doesn’t he realise dat de more he forces me, de more i’ll rebel??
Doesn’t he realise dat there’s always a gap between me n dis family n it’s getting wider bcos of him??
Doesn’t he realise dat i hate him for loving me more than sis??
Doesn’t he realise he’s de one dat causes mum to left me out??
Doesn’t he realise dat i’m not getting enuf mother love bcos of him??
Doesn’t he realise dat i never tell them my true feelings??
Doesn’t he realise there’s a thick wall around me??
Doesn’t he realise i need my own privacy??
Doesn’t he realise it’s a crime to read someone’s private blog??
Haih…i need to listen to music to clear my mind rite now..gonna take driving lessons after dis..i dun wanna crash n die so young..lol
