I am free of all prejudices. I hate everyone equally.

I’m a person who seldom shows my emotions and feelings especially when i’m sad…

I’ve shown my sad feelings in front of my frens but definitely not in front of my parents…

I feel like there’s always a gap between me n my family…i can never tell them my true feelings…

My parents always say that i’m a more confident person than my sister…

But de real fact is dat i’m not as confident as they think i am…

I dun even dare to show my true emotions n feelings…

I dunno why but i’ve automatically build a wall around myself since young…

Whenever i’m sad, i just cried myself to sleep…

My sister once told me to open up n express myself…

She said dat it’s not good to keep everything in my heart, as i’ll break down one day…

But until today, i’m still not ready to open up yet…

8th March 2008,the day O________ made history in Malaysia…

But i doubt dis O_________’s victory will ever be recorded in our history book jz like the May 13 tragedy was erased from our history book forever…

If my parents did not told me the tragedy,i would have become jz like other naive teenager who still thinks highly of our g_________…..

De O_________’s victory could not even be celebrated among frens in fears of de same tragedy will befall us again…

I was disappointed n fascinated dat de g_________ took every initiative to erase all traces of de tragedy in our history book…

If they wanna prevent racial issues n to encourage patriotism in kids n teenagers,y dun they erase all issues dat will cause racial misunderstanding in our history book other than dis tragedy???

Why shld we study history when a lot of important events were erased from it?

If de g__________ can encourage patriotism by erasing de important facts,i think they shld be ashamed of themselves…

I think dat de future generations deserve to know de whole truth n every tiny bits of failure or victory in our history shld not be erased…

It’s always better to noe de truth from de first source(g_________) rather than leak out by other sources(elder generations/internet)…

De denial,deceit n constant lies of de g_________ is de main factor which caused de political tsunami on 8th March 2008…

De g_________ told us not to be blinded by the O_________ lies n not to vote based on our emotions…

But shldn’t they noe by now dat younger generations have a mind of their own n they can actually noe de truth from de internet?

Or r they still so naive to think dat a lot of us doesn’t noe how to use de pc?

Who r they tryin to cheat???three year olds???

I was disgusted at how de g________ was controlling de local newspapers….

Watever de good deeds de g_________ did,it would be in de front page of tomorrow’s newspapers but watever good deeds de O_________ did,u cannot find it even in a small article…                     

Dat’s de reason y citizens said dat de O_________ have done nothing but in fact they have done a lot of stuff dat doesn’t get media coverage…

I shld be grateful my country does not have wars or natural tragedies but i couldn’t control my disgusted feelings of de corruption n de g_________ deny us from knowing de truth…

De O_________’s victory in dis 12th General Election shocked de whole nation especially de political leaders…

Let dis be a good lesson to de political leaders dat they shld not underestimate de voices n cooperation of frustrated n disappointed citizens especially young voters…

Atheism, as a philosophical view, is the position that either affirms the non-existence of gods or rejects theism.

Polytheism is belief in or worship of multiple gods (usually assembled in a pantheon) together with associated mythology and rituals.

Am i considered an atheist or a polytheist?

I often ask myself this question…

Is it a part of growing up that u gets confused about ur religion?

I often heard that teenagers get confused about their sexuality but not religion…so,i’m reali curious to know whether other teenagers have the same issues too…

Not that i dun believe in God,i jz think that all the Gods are the same…

I’m superstitious jz like most of u…i believe in the existence of ghosts and supernatural stuff too…

My parents are buddhist…my mum was once a christian but she converted back to buddhism after a while…

I should have been a buddhist but i’m more interested in christianity…

However,i don’t want to convert to Christianity or any other religion…

I’m jz interested in the stories in the book of Bible…

I did not pray for a few years now…although there were a few times,it was not totally sincere…

Even in my SPM examinations,i did not pray at all…

I did pretend to pray before the examinations starts bcos the examiners request us to say our prayers…

When i pretended to pray,i was thinking to whom i should pray…then i said in my heart to jz believe myself…ended up,i spent the few praying minutes memorizing what i have jz studied…

I wonder whether God will punish me in my results for not praying to him/her…(we are not definitely sure of the gender of God…dun let me hear u say dat God can’t be a woman cos women are de weaker species…i’ll sue u for discrimination towards women… :P)

So,on this day,7th March 2008,2.15pm,i declare myself as an Atheist AND Polytheist…

Should i or should i not ???

Another 5 days/115 hours,my SPM results will be in my hand…

Another 5 days/115 hours for me to decide my future…

Half of my frens have already decide what course to take and which college to enrolled in…

The other half of my frens are still in a dilemma jz like me…

Should i decide my own future or should i follow my parent’s decision?

Should i choose the career that will gives me a stable life n stable income which has been chosen by my parents in the first place?

Or should i choose the profesional career that is quite risky but has always been my dream job?

Should i follow my dreams or should i knock myself out of my dreams to get back to reality?

Why is life so complicated?